Happy 2nd Birthday Sweetheart! Sunday 18th April 2004 Starlight, star bright, the brightest star that shines each night Playing with the angels and the pretty butterflies Happy 2nd Birthday to our twinkle in the sky x ************************************************************ You know sweetheart, I often wonder what you would look like and what you would be doing now. It breaks my heart that I will never see you grow up and see what a big girl you must be getting. Although I am sure they still have the terrible twos in Heaven and I am sure you must be as cheeky and as loveable there as you would be here. I Love You And Miss You Babe and I Always Will Love Mummy xxxxx Two Poems Written for Lucys's 2nd Birthday By Mummy I can see the excitement on your face, its your birthday two today You look at all your presents, but dont know what one to play Your new dolly in her pushchair, or a Barney cuddly toy?? The look on your face is priceless, my heart is filled with joy. We blow up balloons and ice the cake and make jellies together I wish with all my heart this time with you could last forever As I reach out and sit you on my knee, and hold you oh so tight I remember your smell, your touch, your warmth, your eyes that shined so bright I remember how precious, how special, how loved you were, in fact you are At times I feel so close to you, but then others I feel so far As we light the candles on your cake and sing the birthday song I think of all these things and more, that I know I'll only ever long Cos Mummy is just dreaming, of how it all should be And when I wake, I'm left with tears, and an empty knee As I pick up you're flowers and you're balloons, to take them to your grave, I'll try so hard, not to cry and instead try to be brave I'll sit with you and think of all the special time we shared And wish with all my heart, that you could still be there But I know that this will never be, so as I wipe the tears away I'll look forward to another dream, where you and I can play. ********************************************************* Its your birthday my sweetheart, you're two today Can't believe where the times gone, it feels like yesterday Since I held you in my arms, my precious sweet newborn For eighteen days I held you tight, until my heart was torn I remember when I looked at you, so innocent, so pure, You were all I ever wanted, I never asked for more I knew that you were poorly, but I thought you'd be ok I didnt believe the doctors were right, and that you wouldn't stay I cared for you and blocked it out, I knew you'd prove them wrong I filled my mind with different thoughts, like how you'd soon be strong And that you'd soon be home with us, like you were supposed to be I needed you so much Lucy, just like you needed me When I held you tight that last time, our last moments together It broke my heart to watch you, as you 'fell asleep' forever I can't put into words the feelings, I know because I've tried Just hope that you can understand, and see the tears I've cried They say that times a healer, and I know this isnt true Things just aren't any easier, than when I first lost you I still think of you daily, and keep you close in my heart I just can't deal with losing you, my worlds been torn apart On this your second birthday, I imagine you my little girl I can see you so, so beautiful, big blue eyes and all those curls I wish that you were here with me, but I know that this can't be So instead I'm writing poems, instead of planning your party Memories of you stay close to me and though you'll see me cry Its just cos Mummy loves you, and can't bear to say goodbye ***********************************************************