Lucy's 6th Birthday In Heaven 18th April 2008 Time changes many things, but not the memories this day brings The years are swiftly passing by, but love and memories never die I miss you more than anyone knows, with each passing year the emptiness grows The tears in my eyes I can wipe away, but the ache in my heart will always stay xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx My Little Lucy, I am actually writing this letter to you 3 days before what would have been your 6th birthday. Its a time when I should be getting the last of your surprises ready, planning your party, wrapping your presents. That was never to be though and once again I have to deal with the fact that your spending your birthday in heaven with the angels instead of with me. I remember this day, 6 years ago well. Its the day I was admitted into hospital with high blood pressure and I was told that induction this week would be likely. Imagine that, spending the week of my 21st birthday in hospital, but with the knowledge that this week would bring to me the best 21st birthday present I could imagine, YOU! I write this letter to you with tears in my eyes because I remember this day so well and also because I know in my heart that you will never ever know just how much you meant to me Lucy, how much I wanted you, how much I loved you. I never ever expected that you would come and then leave me so soon. I was 34 weeks pregnant. I didnt ever think that having you just 6 weeks earlier than planned would lead to me not having you at all. I didnt know about your condition then though. It still seems so unfair that the condition you had was not compatible with life and that you could not stay with me. I loved you so much and I always will. You will always be my first beautiful little girl x In 3 days time I will once again be strong and remember you with more love than you could imagine. I will cling to the memories of you and I will be so proud as remember how hard you fought to stay with me each and every day. No matter how much time passes, it cannot erase the memories that those 18 days gave me. You were and always will be my little miracle and I will always feel blessed that you were and still are mine. I hope that on Friday you have a wonderful 6th birthday in Heaven with all your angel friends. I know you will be watching over us and sending me strength. If you get chance, remember to blow Mummy a kiss x Love you forever Lucy, miss you more than words could say x Broken hearted Mummy xxxxxxxx